Paradigm shifts (without a clutch!)

nothing-zerotofortyParadigm shifts (without a clutch!) 

Forty?! Seriously?!

My heart has beaten 1,493,821,400 times.
My lungs have taken 311,212,800 breaths.
The sun has risen and set 14,609,688 times.
I’ve seen seven presidents and 10 presidential terms.
More than half of the world’s wildlife has diminished. Yikes!

However you slice it, forty years have happened since the day I took my first breath. Throughout my life, I’ve typically been the youngest one in the room. Growing up as an only child (for the first twenty years, anyway), that’s just how it was. I magnetized to people older than I was, and then I “grew up” faster than everyone else, it seemed (though to be fair, in some ways, I am still the most immature person I know). Suddenly, I am one of the oldest people among my some of my circles. How did this sneak up on me?

So there I sat, almost four decades into this experience called life. Forty years of life experiences, so forty years of epiphanies and accumulated brilliance, right? So what did I know? Wait for it… Nothing! That’s right: NOTHING. Well, not nothing as in zero, zip, nada . . . but just a notch above that. The number of things I was completely certain of could be counted on my toes, with room to spare. Everything else, it seems, was up for grabs.

I had spent three years working with an ontological business coach whose leadership style and teachings impacted me in a way that can hardly be conveyed with words and without tears of awe. I sunk my noggin-chops into his offerings with absolute fervor. In that space, I learned the beautiful distinction of nothingness. There’s not a single thing in the world more powerful than nothing. When you really “get it,” you realize anything is possible. Between my coach and a pretty cool course that he and a friend suggested that I attend (Landmark Forum), I created an awesome (and a bit scary) clearing; a wide-open canvas from which to design my life.

I asked myself:
Who am I?
What do I want to create?
Where do I want to go from here?

Here are the answers I came up with, and wrote out in detail while I was so present to reality that I was keeled over throwing up in the hotel bathroom. Was it the flu? Nope. It was reality, baby. Scary and exciting bursts of nothing had brought me to my knees, and my plan ended up looking like this:

I choose to drop 100 pounds next year (2014).
I choose to be the most incredible mom my girls can fathom.
I choose to be an incredible and patient wife, full of love.
I choose to buy a cabin on the lake and raise our girls with lifetime memories created there.
I choose to create a work environment where my team can thrive and dig coming to work each day.
I choose to lead a team of greats through delivering professional badassery for our clients.
I choose to get this whole God thing figured out.
I choose to be present every single day.
I choose to forgive.
I choose to be authentic and intentional.
I choose to love life. Like really. Seriously.

And so the pivots began. I was about to turn the big four-ohhhh, and that meant it was time to get serious about having all I had chosen for myself. Things haven’t been the same since.

Thank you for joining me on this trek of sharing how things have developed in my world. My gratitude for you, for the universe, and for nothingness runs deep. I look forward to taking this journey together, and uncovering the paradigm shifts, sans clutch!

5 thoughts on “Paradigm shifts (without a clutch!)

  1. Wonderful work! This is the type of information that should be shared on a broader scale! We all need it!
    Thanks =)

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